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  ISBN 978-0-316-39658-5

  E3-20170419-JV-PC

  Contents

  Cover

  Title Page

  Copyright

  Dedication

  Map

  PART ONE Simon

  PART TWO Juliet

  Simon

  Juliet

  Simon

  PART THREE Simon

  Juliet

  Acknowledgments

  Glossary

  Mountain Glossary

  Bibliography

  About the Author

  Also by Sarah Lotz

  Newsletters

  For Charlie

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  From: [email protected]

  Hi T,

  No easy way to say this, but I’m going back to Tibet. Yeah. Back to the mountain, though I swore I never would, remember? Leave for Heathrow in 5. How’s that for casually dropping a bombshell? I’ve tried everything else, T, and going back is the only way. Got to the point where it’s this or a padded cell.

  If I don’t make it home, there’s a dropbox file you should check out. Sounds ominous, I know, like I’ve gone full B-movie: If you’re reading this then I’m already dead… Password is ‘fingersinyrheart06’. Anyway, read it. Or not. Up to you. Do whatever you want with it. Just needed to tell the truth. Put the record straight, you know?

  Farewell and adieu, mate.

  Aka

  So long, and thanks for all the fish.

  Si

  PART ONE

  Simon

  December, 2006

  I met the man who would save my life twice–and ultimately destroy it–on a potholed road in the arse-end of the Welsh countryside. He was sitting on a kitbag at the side of the lane, a trio of crushed cider cans at his feet. Morning mist still clung to the snow-dusted hills surrounding us, but all he was wearing on his top half was a Harley-Davidson T-shirt.

  I pulled up next to him and wound down my window. ‘Ed?’

  A curt nod.

  ‘Hi. I’m Simon.’

  ‘You’re late, lad. I said eight.’

  ‘Sorry about that, got a bit lost. All looks the same round here, doesn’t it?’ I gave him my best self-deprecating grin–it usually thawed the frostier punters at the coffee shop where I part-timed. It didn’t work on Ed.

  He jabbed a finger at the rutted track snaking through a wooded area on the opposite side of the lane. ‘Pull into the trees over there. Don’t want the car to be seen from the road.’

  ‘Wilco.’

  Wincing as branches scraped along the paintwork, I slid Thierry’s Ford Focus beneath the limbs of a broken tree. My breath smoked as I climbed out, stretched, and waited for Ed to join me. I was chilled to the bone (the car’s heater had packed up just outside Newport), and already cursing myself for setting this thing up.

  He threw his bag next to the car and gave my hand a rough-palmed shake. Close up, he had the swollen nose and florid skin of a career alcoholic. Baby-fine hair wisped over his scalp. I put him at around sixty. Do you really want to follow this grumpy old sod down a hole, Simon?

  ‘Where’s your car, Ed?’

  ‘Don’t have one. Hitched here last night.’

  ‘All the way out here?’ Quite a feat: apart from a stoical sheep, he was the only living thing I’d seen in the last hour. He smelled like he might have slept rough; a cured-meat fug wafted off his clothes. ‘I could’ve given you a lift, picked you up somewhere.’

  ‘It’s no trouble.’

  ‘Well, I really appreciate this.’

  A sniff. ‘So you want to go down Cwm Pot, then?’

  ‘Yeah.’

  ‘To film the caves.’

  ‘That’s right. Like I said in my emails, I’m interested in what happened down there in the eighties. Thought it might make a good documentary.’ Bullshit of course, but I wasn’t going to tell him the real reason I wanted to explore the caves until I had a clearer idea of how he might take it.

  ‘Caves are off-limits. Have been for twenty years.’

  ‘I know. That’s why I got hold of you.’

  ‘Dangerous, too.’

  Fuck’s sake. ‘Yeah, Ed, I know.’

  He smirked as if he knew something I didn’t. His irises were dark, the whites around them tinged with yellow–pickled-onion eyes. ‘You got my money?’

  Tell this prick you’ve changed your mind and get the hell out of here. Good advice, sensible advice, but I ignored it. It had taken serious legwork to get to this point, and I wasn’t about to throw in the towel. After hearing about Cwm Pot and its grisly history, I’d spent days scouring caving forums looking for a guide, finally coming across Ed, the only caver who openly admitted sneaking into the caves. He was clearly a miserable old git with a drinking problem, but the other cavers on the forum deferred to him, so presumably he knew what he was doing. I gave him the three hundred quid we’d agreed on. He counted it, taking his time. ‘And an extra fifty for the equipment.’

  Bastard. ‘That wasn’t part of the deal.’

  ‘It is now.’

  ‘Twenty.’

  ‘Twenty-five.’

  He smirked again as I handed it over. Now I had to make this work. Half a month’s rent had disappeared into the pocket of his filthy jeans, as well as next week’s food and beer budget. ‘You brought gloves and boots like I told you?’

  ‘Yeah. Wellies and washing-up gloves, right?’ Not exactly the outdoor gear I was used to.

  He dug in the bag and handed me a helmet, a head torch, a ratty belt with an old-fashioned karabiner attached, a yellow rubber exposure suit, a pair of kneepads and a blue fleece under-suit that resembled a giant Babygro. ‘Put that on first.’

  He pulled his T-shirt over his head and I tried not to stare at the wormy scar bisecting his concave chest. That and the grey hair furring his limbs made him look older, vulnerable, less of a hard-man. ‘What you waiting for, lad?’

  Not wanting to look prissy by retreating to the car to get changed, I used the exposure suit as a makeshift mat, stripped off and gingerly shucked the fleece suit over my legs. It held the same cured-meat pong as Ed.

  ‘What happened to you, lad?’ He was eyeing my own cluster of scar tissue, a network of raised white flesh criss-crossing my left shoulder.

  ‘Climbing accident. Eight years ago. Smashed up my ankle, femur and collarbone. Fractured my skull too.’ A stupid, avoidable accident. I’d been showing off in front of a group of hikers, free-climbing an easy first pitch at Cwm Silyn–the kind of training-wheels route I’d have cruised through when I was a kid. I’d got cocky, miscalculated what should have been a no-brainer grab, and then the ground was rushing up to meet me. ‘Two months in hospital.’ I rolled up the suit’s bottom cuff and pointed out the keloid bumps where the pins had fused my ankle together.

  Another grunt. A sign of respect? Impossible to tell.

  The yellow outer-suit was a size too small and nipped at my armpits and crotch, but it was surprisingly effective at keeping out the cold.

  Time to get the guy onside–I was about to spend the day doing some seriously dangerous stuff with him, after all. ‘So, Ed. How long have you been—’

  ‘How old are you, lad?’

  I blinked, wrong-footed. ‘Uh… twenty-eight.’

  ‘Think of yourself as a pretty boy, do you?’

  ‘What? Why would you say that? No.’

  ‘Married?’

  ‘No.’

  ‘Girlfriend?’

  ‘No. What’s all this got to do with—’

  ‘Not one of them pillow biters, are you?’

  ‘No!’ Great–homophobic as well.

  ‘You sure you can handle this?’

  ‘The caves? I think so.’

  ‘You think s
o?’

  ‘I know so.’

  ‘It’s not some tourist day out. Gets technical. Dangerous.’

  ‘I can handle myself.’

  ‘Caving experience?’

  ‘No, but like I said in my emails I’ve been climbing all my life.’

  ‘Don’t tell me, some namby-pamby weekend outings, am I right? A trip up Snowdon and a fiddle around Ben Nevis’s botty?’

  ‘I know what I’m doing. Among other things, I’ve done the Aiguilles and I was leading out on VS routes at sixteen.’ Pompous, and an exaggeration, but so what? He was pissing me off.

  ‘The Aiguilles, eh?’ A sneer. ‘Means nothing to me.’

  My irritation flipped into anger. ‘Look, I’ve come a long way to do this. If you don’t want to guide me down there, just say so and give me my fucking money back.’

  A cackle, a flash of tea-coloured teeth. ‘No need to lose your temper.’ He belched. ‘Get a move on. Want to be out of there before dark.’

  ‘Sure you don’t want to give me a hard time for a few more minutes?’

  ‘Nah. You’re all right, lad. Before I took you down there, I needed to know you had a backbone.’

  ‘Seriously? You were messing with me?’

  He winked. ‘Get off your high horse. You’ll do.’ He took a hip flask out of the waterproof bag slung over his shoulder, knocked back a slug and handed it to me. I wasn’t a fan of hardtack, especially that early in the morning, but I surreptitiously wiped the spout and drank anyway, stupidly pleased that I’d passed the Ed test.

  Back then, whenever I met someone new, I used to do this thing where I’d try and figure out their film or TV character equivalent–a dumb mental tic that started when I was in hospital recovering from the climbing accident. I knew immediately that my best mate Thierry was Ray, Dan Aykroyd’s character in Ghostbusters (American, pudgy, nerdy, endearing); Cosimo, my manager at Mission:Coffee, was Tony Soprano (mercurial, morbid, a mouth-breather with major mommy issues). Ed was easy. He was Quint, the unhinged, predatory shark hunter from Jaws. Same cruel smirk and scar fetish.

  He rolled a cigarette while I fiddled with the helmet-cam’s waterproof case, attaching it to the helmet with clumsy fingers.

  ‘That going to work down there?’

  ‘Absolutely.’ Another lie. Thierry and I had bought the camera off a dodgy, debt-ridden motor-cross enthusiast who used to come into the coffee shop. Even in ideal conditions, its quality wasn’t great, I hadn’t tested it properly in limited light, and I wasn’t sure that the case, which I’d bought on the cheap and modified, would actually work. ‘How likely is it that we’ll get wet?’

  ‘Should be fine.’ A sly smile. ‘Unless you fall in.’

  ‘Fall in what?’

  ‘Just keep your wits about you, and mind you don’t get me on your film.’

  ‘You camera-shy, Ed?’

  ‘Just mind you don’t, lad.’

  I tried the helmet on for size. The weight of the camera made it droop to one side, but it would have to do. I collected the Snickers bar I’d bought for elevenses from the console, locked the car, and hid the key under the wheelbase. I thought about sending Thierry a text, something along the lines of , but it was unlikely I’d get a signal out here.

  Ed made for a bramble-strangled stile, scrambled over it and headed up the sloping field beyond. I followed, my boots crunching on frosted grass and sheep shit. Despite being bow-legged and decades older than me, he set a cracking pace. By the time I caught up to him, I was puffing.

  ‘How far is it?’

  ‘Entrance is two miles or so.’

  ‘That far? Couldn’t we have driven closer?’

  He gave me a sideways look. ‘You’re not in London now, lad. After we cross this section, we’ll be trespassing. Keep an eye out for the farmer. He’s come at me with a shotgun before.’

  ‘That bad?’

  ‘Doesn’t want the hassle if people run into trouble down there. Happened more than a few times over the years.’

  ‘How many times have you been down Cwm Pot? Since they closed the caves, I mean.’

  ‘A fair few.’

  ‘And you don’t worry about the caves flooding?’

  ‘I know what I’m doing. Know the signs.’ He paused and looked up at the low concrete slab of the sky. ‘Think it’ll hold, but there might be run-off from the snow if it warms up later.’

  Thanks to the booze and the fleece Babygro, my body was warm, but the crisp air made my lungs ache, and I trudged on in silence. We slurped through a shallow ford, and I trailed him across another couple of fields, through a barbed wire fence–a ‘no trespassing’ sign hanging from its tines–and down towards a rocky outcropping. A stream frothed and burbled alongside it, edged with a fringe of startlingly green moss. After another short and slippery trek down a path, we came to a rock face with an opening about the size of an oven door. This was barred by a padlocked gate with a cracked and fading ‘danger, no entry’ sign on it. He hung back while I got an establishing shot, then whipped out a Swiss Army knife and picked the padlock in seconds.

  ‘Where did you learn how to do that?’

  ‘Never you mind. In you get.’

  I squeezed my body through the opening, and crab-walked into a sloping cavern. Ed relocked the padlock (‘Don’t want to advertise that we’re down here’), clicked on his headlamp, pushed past me, and disappeared into the mouth of a rough-hewn vertical tunnel at the far end. I peered into the tunnel’s throat, the beam of my head torch unable to penetrate much of the blackness. The ladder bolted to the wall was showing its age, and to reach the top rung, I’d have to swing my legs into the abyss and drop down more than a metre. Ed was already slithering down the mossy rungs like a ferret.

  ‘Stop playing with yourself, lad!’ his voice echoed up, punctuated by the thunk of feet on metal rungs.

  I rolled onto my belly, and inched down until my toes hit the top rung, fingertips clinging to the edge of the hole until I had no choice but to commit. There was a bladder-weakening moment when I teetered, unbalanced, and then my legs took my weight and I was able to wriggle down until I could grip the top rung with my hands. You used to be able to do this shit in your sleep, what happened to you?

  The fall happened. The bones had healed, but my confidence was still shattered. In hindsight, I suppose part of my motivation for heading down Cwm Pot was to see if I could still handle myself.

  The washing-up gloves gripped the metal surprisingly well, as did the wellies I’d bought from a discount store the day before. The lower I went, the more comfortable I became. Then my left foot stepped down into nothing. I bent my head and directed the light between my legs, revealing the stony floor a couple of body lengths below me. There was no sign of Ed. Muscles straining as I took my weight on my arms, I let my legs dangle, counted to three and dropped, careful not to land awkwardly on my ankle. There had to be another route out: I doubted I’d be able to reach the sheared-off end of the ladder even if I stood on Ed’s shoulders. ‘Ed? Now what?’

  ‘There’s a crack at the base.’ His voice was reedy, as if it was coming from miles away. ‘Get down on your arse, and slip through it feet first.’

  True enough, there was a ragged fissure in the rock to my right. I wriggled through a short lumpy passage that dipped abruptly, and before I could arrest myself, plopped onto the floor at Ed’s feet, landing on my tailbone.

  ‘Ow. Thanks for the warning.’

  Ed cackled. The sound didn’t echo. Rather, the air seemed to swallow it.

  I stood up and took stock. We were in a church-sized chamber, the ceiling arching above us in graceful waves, several walls adorned with the dripstone cascades of calcified rock in muted shades of red and bronze and gold. I’d imagined there would be a dank, dark odour of rot and stale water, maybe mould, but I couldn’t smell anything at all. I breathed in, sniffing the air like a dog–still nothing. It was slightly warmer than outside. The sound of distant water whispered in the background, and every so often came the musical plink of globules dripping into shallow rock bowls. ‘Impressive.’

  ‘They were going to open it to the public back in the eighties, then those lads died down here. Put paid to that.’ He led the way to a tunnel that branched off to the left. ‘Time to go off-piste, lad.’